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Kenevil Lyrics

"Needles & K-Pins" 2004	"Sloppy Sevenths" 2006

Needles & K-Pins

PROLOGUE

dave disgrace -guitars
kenevil - synthesizers, percussion, distorted noise

-music by dave disgrace and kenevil-

I WANT YOUR SODOMY

Lay me down, spread me out
Make me squeal, don't stop now

"You want a little lick? you wanna suck my dick?"
How about we do them both at once until it makes you sick?
"You want a little lick? you wanna suck my dick?"
How about we do them both at once until it does the trick?
C'mon

Do you want to love me? Do you want to fuck me?
I don't really give a shit as long as something's inside me
Do you want to trust me or just want to thrust me?
I don't really give a fuck as long as something's inside of me
I want your sodomy

kev - sytnthesizers, guitars
kenevil- drum programming, vocals

-music by kev and kenevil-
-lyrics by kenevil-

THE EYE INSIDE

Volunteer human experimentation
Insert injections; minus imagination

The eye inside will end your life
The eye inside will dim the lights

Shots of apathy; amphetamine overdose
Smoke, shoot, snort, swallow anything that brings us close

The eye inside welcomes the night
The eye inside will shut your eyes
The eye inside will end your life
The eye inside will dim the lights

I need some money, give me drugs
I know one day I'll need help, but fuck it

kev - synthesizers
kenevil - drum programming, vocals

-music by kev and kenevil-
-lyrics by kenevil-

COME INSIDE (my mind)

Can't decide what to do next
Can't get a hold of myself
Can't seem to draw this vision
Can't understand anyone else
Can't develop my feelings
Can't photograph my thoughts
Can't apply my intentions
Can't sell what I've bought

Wanna take a journey to nowhere?

Come inside...
Come inside...
Come inside...
Come inside...my mind

Relieve my stress forever
Get inside my brain
End this wretchedness of the world
And kill my fucking pain

kev - synthesizers
kenevil - drum programming, vocals
-music by kev and kenevil-
-lyrics by kenevil-

ABUSE, NOT USE

I don't need you in my vein
But I'd like a little high, with no pain
So I'll melt you and let you flow
Now the want has turned to need, so don't go

No tomorrow, there's just today
There's no limit to the price I'll pay
To get that feeling back in my brain
To get the needle back in my vein

Cause I love to abuse and i can't overuse
It's use, not abuse
I used to just use and now I overabuse
Abuse, not just use

I don't want you in my vein
But I need the high to kill off the pain
Control is an impossibility
Sew my eyes shut so I can sleep

No tomorrow, there's just today
There's no limit to the price I'll pay
To get that feeling back in my brain
To get the needle back in my vein

Cause I love to abuse and i can't overuse
It's use, not abuse
I used to just use and now I overabuse
Abuse, not just use

I don't want you in you in my vein
I don't want you in you in my vein
I need you, I need you, I need you, I need you
I need you, I need you, I need you, I need you

kev - guitars, synthesizers
kenevil - drum programming, vocals

-music by kev, dave disgrace, and kenevil-
-lyrics by kenevil-

MONOLOGUE (part eine)

kev - synthesizers

-music by kev-

MAGICIAN

Hey magician, could you pull a rabbit out of my head?
Hey magician, could you bring my old life back from the dead?
Hey magician, could you turn the ocean into beer?
Hey magician, could you make me disappear?
Disappear?...disappear...disappear...

Hey magician, could you make me invisible?
Hey magician, could you turn the knife a little?
Hey magician, could you saw-in-half all my fears?
Hey magician, could you make me disappear?

Disappear?...diappear?...disappear?...
Never to reappear...never to reappear...
Never to reappear...never to reappear...

You've cause me hundreds of tears, now I need to disappear
You've cause me hundreds of tears, now I need to disappear
You've cause me hundreds of tears, now I need to disappear
Never to reappear...never to reappear...

kev - synthesizers, guitar
kenevil - drum programming, vocals

-music by kev and kenevil-
-lyrics by kenevil-

UNCONDITIONED RESPONSE

My fingernails are deep in the chalkboard now
The cold screeching maks me feel good somehow
The blood is running faster than I can take
I cut my eyelids out to stay awake

I don't need to feel OK
I just want to get through one more day
I don't want to feel this way
I just want to survive one more day
Then you can take me away

I hit the climax then I tumbled down the hill
Always trying new shit cause i never get my fill
No drugs in the house, my balance is trown away
My body ebbs and my insides decay

Wanted to star over but I'm always at the end
I tried to end it all, but it all began again
I try hard to get away, but I always come back again
I tried to find someone but the drug's my only friend

I can't lie, I know I'm gonna die
soon...

kev - acoustic guitar,synthesizer
kenevil - lead and background vocals

-music by kev and kenevil-
-lyrics by kenevil-

YOU WERE MY LI(f)E

shatter the remains

My innocense is wasted in a puddle of rejection
Don't want to feel anything for anyone anymore
There is a crack in the mirror that was our creation
I want to shatter the remains into obliviation

It must be meant this way, alone I'll die
You took the "F" out of my life and turned it into a "lie"

I need a tiny pill or some substance to swallow
Can't escape the emptiness that only follows
There is a crack in the mirror that was our creation
I want to shatter the remains into obliviation

the note

Greed, wrath, pride, lust, gluttony, sloth and envy
All seven deadly sins, all reasons why you've left me
Unsheath thy happy dagger, insert it into my heart
Spill the blood I pumped for you and tear my world apart
Confessions, secrets, requests, all kept until I lose
The only thing left hanging around is my body by a noose
I am a machine that fell apart one day
You picked the pieces up and you threw them all away
I am a stepping-stone on your mountain of life
I am just the string and you are the knife
To the malicous monster, known as you, I was fed
You drained me of my love, so I'll hate you instead
I lost my mind and never could find it again
The voices made me do things that I never really meant
I am a rented DVD that you watched for one day
I am a a syringe that you used and threw away
No longer will I be thrown away, no longer will I be used
No longer will I be a whore, no longer will I be abused
Cause it's over...

kev - synthesizers
kenevil - synthesizer, drum programming, vocals

-music and lyrics by kenevil-
MONOLOGUE (part zwei)

kev- synthesizers

-music by kev-

POST HOC, ERGO PROPTER HOC

You're the broken springs in my bed
You're the tumor inside my head
You're the blood that I over-bleed
You're the book I never learned to read
You're the redness in my eyes
You're the tears that I'm forced to cry
You're the addiction I just can't resist
You're the razor against my wrist

You stole my heart, you stole my mind
You killed yourself and left me behind
You stole my heart, you stole my mind
You killed yourself and left me behind
And now you control me
And now you control me
And now you control me
And now you control me

You're the ringing in my ears
You're the nightmares I've always feared
You're the itch that I cannot reach
You're the hungry blood-scuking leech
You're the scab that don't want to heal
You're the hurt I don't want to feel
You're the stain that can't go away
You're the pain that can only stay

You stole my heart, you stole my mind
You killed yourself and left me behind
You stole my heart, you stole my mind
You killed yourself and left me behind
And now you control me
And now you control me
And now you control me
And now you control me

Don't need this, don't want this
Didn't ask for this, take it away from me

kev - synthesizers, guitar
kenevil - drum programming, vocals

-music by kev and kenevil-
-lyrics by kenevil-

THE FALL

Everyone lies, everyone cries, everyone tries, everyone dies
Falling, falling, I'm falling, falling

kev - synthesizers,guitar
kenevil - drum programming, vocals

-lyrics by kenevil-

INSIDE THE OUTSIDE (miles of underworld)

Taking a trip to the underworld
Full of half-dead boys and girls
Everything is different here
Everyone exists to fear
I was torn since I was born
Now nothing seems right anymore
I've been dead inside your head
Miles of underworld, all red

Cold and blind, can't deny it's absurd
Tried to love, but love's just a filthy four-letter word
And I know all of those you despised
Took a trip to the inside of the outside


Making friends with the bats
Kill my friends and eat the rats
Cancer fills, hunger grows
No one speaks. no one knows
making friends with the rats
Fuck my friends, and eat the bats
Hunger fills, cancer grows
No one gives, no one knows

Cold and blind, can't deny it's absurd
Tried to love, but love's just a filthy four-letter word
And I know all of those you despised
Took a trip to the inside of the outside

kev - synthesizers,guitars
kenevil - drum programming, vocals

-music by kev, dave disgrace, and kenevil-
-lyrics by kenevil-

GIVE ME RESTFUL SLEEP

Stunned silence, people crying
A nameless man describing the uneventful events of my life
Put a rose on my box, put your hand on your mouth
Walk back to your seat and subtract your age from mine

Let me lie here forever, let me rest in peace
Let me die here forever, give me restful sleep

Never wanted to be buried
Never wanted to be burned
Just wanted to disappear from this fucking earth

kev - synthesizer
kenevil - synthesizer, incoherant babble, vocals

-music and lyrics by Kenevil-

EPILOGUE

kev - synthesizer

-music by kev-

Sloppy Sevenths

INITIAL PENETRATION
(instrumental)

-music by kevin blakey-

kevin blakey - syntyhesizer

PLACENTA SANDWICH

I’ll take you out
To have a little fun
We’ll get real high
And a little drunk

Put something in your drink / I’ll bet you didn’t think
I’d be capable of something like this
Give you my pink missile / Make you bleed a little
It’s much worse if you try to resist

If you know me, you’ll know I get what I want
And I always take it
If you know me, you’ll know I get what I want
And I always take it

I’ll lay you down
And make you cry
I’ll leave my mark
Right in your eye

I’ll shove it in your face / I know I’m a disgrace
To even the lowest form of scum
Awake or asleep / I’ll get you so fucking deep
You won’t be able to tell anyone

If you know me, you’ll know I get what I want
And I always take it
If you know me, you’ll know I get what I want
And I always take it

Put something in your drink / I’ll bet you didn’t think
I’d be capable of something like this
Give you my pink missile / Make you bleed a little
It’s much worse if you try to resist

I’ll shove it in your face / I know I’m a disgrace
To even the lowest form of scum
Awake or asleep / I’ll get you so fucking deep
You won’t be able to tell anyone

If you know me, you’ll know I get what I want
And I always take it
If you know me, you’ll know I get what I want
And I always take it

-music and lyrics by kenevil-

kenevil - guitar, bass, drum programming, vocals
kevin blakey - synthesizer

THE EXCESS

You smile, lying on the bed
I know what’s running through your head
Our intuitions both connect
I think you know what’s cuming next

I know you know it turns me on when you say it, so say it
I know you know it turns me on when you do it, so do it
I know you know it turns me on when you scream it, so scream it
I know you know it turns me on when you take it, so take it

I feel the excess inside you
I see the excess far from view
I hear the excess working through
I feel the excess inside you

I’m getting close

Looking at the intensity in your eyes, helps me get even closer
Listening to you call me those names, helps me get even closer
Feeling your body jerking back towards mine, helps me get even closer
Feeling your breath getting continuously warmer, helps me get even closer
The way you grab a hold of my hair and pull, helps me get even closer
The way you bite down on your lower lip, helps me get even closer
The way you moan and pant and sigh, helps me get even closer
The way you say “it hurts and feels good at the same time,” helps me get even closer

-music and lyrics by kenevil-

kenevil - drum programming, vocals
kevin blakey - synthesizer, guitar

WHERE THE SEVER IS SPLIT

She walks around me, observes every inch
Pulls out the strap-on, to see if I flinch
Reaches deep into her bag of tricks
What will unsurface, I cannot predict
It’s long and sharp, and a little thick
Into my skin, it carves a little slit
Keeps the blood flowing until I’m sick
It turns me on more than I want to admit

Don’t like it when you stop working over my neck
Whispering sweet nothings just to keep me in check
Keep the scales balanced between the violence and sex
I don’t want to rest until you fuck me to death

Fuck me to death

She’s restrained me with chains, in her concrete pit
Covers me with wax, poison ivy and shit
Looks into my eyes, and in them she spits
She’s so energetic, the bitch never quits
Lays one into my jaw, with her clenched up fist
Reaches her hand inside, where the sever is split
Asks again if I’ve had enough of it
I shake my head as I wince, I will never submit

Don’t like it when you stop working over my neck
Whispering sweet nothings just to keep me in check
Keep the scales balanced between the violence and sex
I’m not gonna rest until you fuck me to death

Fuck me to death

-music and lyrics by kenevil-

kenevil - guitar, drum programming, vocals
kevin blakey - synthesizer

HOW DO I GET IN THOSE PANTS?

Having an argumentative conversation of two with yourself
Insane but aware, thinking out loud, holding a broken gun in your hand
Correcting the mistakes of your alter ego, which one will admit that they’re wrong?
Calm and livid, which one is real? you pull your hair out then fall asleep

How do I get in those pants?

I see your eyes eying mine you crack a smile then walk away
But then pause for a moment, turn your head back around, facial expression suddenly changing
I can read the accusative look in your eyes like an open book
What did I do? I never met you, I think you have me confused with somebody else

How do I get in those pants?

Mixing 3 languages, in one sentence, overlapping, changing your volume and speed
I put my hands to my sides, shrug my shoulders, I have no idea where you’re going with this
I forgot what I was going to say, if it was important I’ll remember it anyway
I guess I’m so preoccupied with…wait, what the hell was I talking about?

How do I get in those pants?

-music and lyrics by kenevil-

kenevil - drum programming, guitar during chorus, vocals
kevin blakey - synthesizer, guitar

HORSESHOES & HAND GRENADES

Through your bedroom window I creep
While you pretend you’re asleep
I sit down and listen to you breathe
My thoughts and feelings, I cannot speak

You want your eyes open but words will be spoken
And promises broken reality soaks in, now

I kiss you
(One last time before I leave, it’ll mean much more to me than you’ll ever believe)
I’ll miss you
(Do you have any idea what we could have had? What caused it all to end so fucking bad?)
I touch you
(Just so I can feel something for the last time, our bodies and spirits will intertwine)
I love you
(I cannot help but be afraid, cause I don’t know if these feelings…will fade)

I took everything you gave to me
And threw it all into the sea
Then I realized it was a mistake
Want to get it back but it’s too late

You gave me hope and I learned how to cope
But it went up in smoke, I’m at the end of my rope, now

I kiss you
(One last time before I leave, it’ll mean much more to me than you’ll ever believe)
I’ll miss you
(Do you have any idea what we could have had? What caused it all to end so fucking bad?)
I touch you
(Just so I can feel something for the last time, our bodies and spirits will intertwine)
I love you
(I cannot help but be afraid, cause I don’t know if these feelings…will fade)

-music and lyrics by kenevil-

kenevil - drum programming, guitar, vocals
kevin blakey - guitar, synthesizer

CIGARETTE BREAK
(instrumental)

-music by kevin blakey)

kenevil - drum programming
kevin blakey - synthesizers

DRAWN & QUARTERED

Being led to the gravel pit
Full of rotting corpses, bugs, and shit
Blindfolded, hands tied back
Vision interrupted, all is black
Struggling to break myself free
Dozens begin to circle around me
Each taking aim with their weapons of stone
Gonna shatter every one of my bones

But little do you know, I like the pain
It’s a stinging sensation in my brain
So draw & quarter me, to see how much I can bleed
When the smoke clears, nothing more will remain

There are no more stones left to throw
My blood just continues to overflow
I’m dying, but I barely notice it
Drag my half-dead body from the pit
Lay my carcass out in the dirt
My body’s numb but every inch of it hurts
A worn out rope is tied around each limb
Gonna stretch apart my bludgeoned skin

But little do you know, I like the pain
It’s a stinging sensation in my brain
So draw & quarter me, to see how much I can bleed
When the smoke clears, nothing more will remain
But little do you know, I like the pain
It’s a stinging sensation that sustains
So draw & quarter me, no matter how much I plead
When the smoke clears, nothing more will remain
When the smoke clears, nothing more will remain

-music and lyrics by kenevil-

kenevil - guitar, drum programming, vocals
kevin blakey - synthesizer

DEFLOWERED

I deflowered you
One night in your room
I let you smile
for a little while

But don’t you know the happiness won’t last
It never lasts

-music and lyrics by kenevil-

kenevil - acoustic guitar, vocals

THE GIFT OF A BULLET

I woke up in the middle of the night absorbed with guilt I knew I&'d feel
I shut the windows and lock the doors head is spinning I cannot tell what's real
And now I’m hiding away and locked inside a shell of what I used to be
I gave to you a gift of a bullet, it was the only way to set you free

I cannot fix what I have broken
I can’t take back the words I’ve spoken
I cannot slay the beast I’ve woken
I cannot tell where this is going

I cannot mend the wounds I’ve opened
I cannot heal the pain that’s growing
I cannot dry the tears-that-are flowing
I can’t erase the paths I’ve chosen

-music by kenevil and kevin blakey, lyrics by Kenevil-

kenevil - drum programming, vocals
kevin blakey - guitar, bass

BODY

I discover her in the field
Motionless, all is revealed
Eyes half-closed, expression sustains
She’s vulnerable, I can’t restrain

I know this is wrong, but I won’t be here long
I’ll just finish up quick, get up and walk away
I’ll be all done soon, or should I resume?
I’ll cover her up, and come back another day

What just happened? What did I do?
I figure it out, then I continue
The body stiff, I touch and hold
Can feel her warmth turning cold

Is this really wrong? has this gone on too long?
I could end it anytime I want, I suppose
Don’t think I can stop, even as she rots
Under my arms, I can feel her begin to decompose

Curiosity and interest grows
What was she like? I’ll never know
Well maybe I should take her home
Cause I don’t want to be alone

This doesn’t feel wrong, infact it feels strong
I cannot part with her, my love for her is true
You won’t understand, this is my only chance
To have anyone or anything to wake up to
(We’ll be together in death)

-music by kenevil and kevin blakey, lyrics by kenevil-

kenevil- drum programming, vocals
kevin blakey - guitars

AFTERGLOW
(instrumental)

-music by kenevil-

kenevil - guitar